relief

i guess there really is nothing truly "relieving" in this crazy period before A levels, but in a way i now feel like a great burden has been lifted off my chest, after coming clean and telling my closer friends what i eventually had to tell them but was unsure exactly how to.

shan't be too unambiguous and indiscriminate in discussing things here on public domain cause this is largely a memo for myself anyway! marking the end of meticulous hiding which was quite clearly beginning to fail actually :P

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Aside, i am becoming addicted to ramen from nice ramen-yas :( 

omg glorious glorious broth and japanese chashu which totally kill any semblance of a waist!!!

like. wow.

sometimes it just fills you with this wistfulness, the feeling that things could've been so much more, that so much more could've grown and developed but for some reason or other they never did.

I'll always wonder.

rather tired now but it was a good day :) gonna sleep once my hair dries hahaha!

i dont know anymore.

thankful, really. this sort of calm joy resonates within and i can only say that i do often ponder the reasons for feeling thus, especially in the face of a crazy pile of (partly valueless) work.

its nice how sometimes when you allow yourself a thoughtless smile, and things actually start looking much sunnier afterwards :)

un oiseau rebelle

please do us both a favour and dont let me play la habanera on those heartstrings. even if you agree its a beautiful song

though ohsotempting 'cause frankly we all know thats the instrument it was originally written for, there's no guarantee with what happens after.