and useless.
want to work hard but the willpower to do so is completely sapped when I face the pile of backlog accumulated. i know it's irrational. but i just feel so so effin scared. i'm a bit sick of this already. feeling so shitty daily. and it's not like me to be so unhappy days on end. i feel unwell. my eyes and neck and body are fatigued in this way where it's not very obvious but enough to make me feel subtly irritated. it just adds to my emotional distress.
the worst part is knowing it's my own fault the backlog accumulated in the first place. and that it will continue to accumulate till it kills me unless i miraculously overcome the inertia, soon.
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