I don't quite know why, but it sort of marks a passage from adolescence into early adulthood, seeing things being done in a different way than before, and knowing that granduncle's farm lease is ending super soon (with it a whole segment of my childhood memories will be stowed away too!) also makes me feel like i'm truly leaving things behind now. And the way i no longer excitedly update the angpao money count at the end of each day, no longer bother wanting to put on all that make up and nail polish for fun, no longer keep bothering about whether my hair looks good for photoshoots, no longer wanna play hide and seek with the little ones blablabla, just makes me feel older. It's not all bad of course, but yeah just a reminder that time has passed and that somehow i am less energetic :o omg. premature ageing!
I'm still happy though, 'cause life's been good :)
Dear God please help me be closer to you. When things get so busy I tend to momentarily lose sight of what it's all supposed to mean, and emerge some time later feeling rather spent and confused.
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