so why? frankly i have no idea either and it gets confusing at times but fortunately life is usually hectic enough to drown out that little nagging question. but in my quiet moments, i do reflect, and grow mildly afraid of not having figured out what i truly want out of this, knowing this limbo cant last forever. ah shucks i typed out a whole bunch here but backspaced it all 'cause it didn't quite capture the essence of what i was trying to mean but in short it's rather wretched a feeling that makes me so desperate for some form of release. and i'm just hoping (quite selfishly) that it's crossed your mind and perturbed you before as well, because i do not want to be in this alone. really do not.


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aside, i shot 356 for today's monthly shoot :) not exactly stellar but at least it wasn't a gross underperformance i guess? Am feeling quite thankful for such results considering how my arm felt like it was gonna screw me up bad right from the start. BUT WE REALLY NEED TO BUCK UP!